Union with What Is
This morning’s practice was one of the most physically challenging practices I’ve had to date with my teacher and one of the most—if not the most—devotional practices to date.
It started to unfold yesterday morning in Zen meditation with Chad when I experienced a profound insight into the depth of my Higher Awareness—Buddhi. That it is far wider and greater than I have been seeing it. Then, a couple of hours later in a beautiful mentoring session with my teacher, Sofia Diaz, among many things discussed related to life, work, and relationship, she revealed that I still haven’t found my tailbone. After 13 years of practice. I nodded in agreement. I know.
So, of course, this morning’s practice with Sofia was about finding the tailbone. The formula was comprised of many down dogs on fingertip pads, pouncing cats, cobras, dolphins, camels, locusts, and bridges. And the moment I wish to share has to do with something I’ve talked about before and yet, each time it’s like I’m only just experiencing it for the first time.
So, the thing with Hatha Yoga (from which all other Yoga-as-we-know-it-today schools spawned) is this: First, you have to know what practice is really all about, if you’re serious about real Yoga. Practice is Union with What Is. Second, to truly transcend challenges and limitations, be them mental, emotional or physical, you HAVE to not just come to your edge, but stay, receive what's there, and reach through the intensity with TOTAL concentration and presencing. And the moment all of your mortal being wants out is the moment of most importance, for this is where LOVE DEVOTION is tested. How devoted are you to LOVE? Unconditional Love? It’s literally a feeling outward from your heart, and loving all of it.
It's really all just energy being ecstatically conducted. And then something happens.
It was in cobra, as I was plastering all of the lower half of my body into the floor, radically pointing tailbone back, elbows drawn in, pushing through hands, heart reaching forward and up, throat open, gaze directed out through the window into nature, that Union with What Is…happened.
I recall Sofia saying three things: open eyes wide, exhale, and smile.
And those actions released (what was not only felt but seen) thousands and thousands of stars exploding from within me, through my skin, through my opened eyes and all around me.
And I got it. I got it. For me, in that moment, was Union with What Is.
I know that it has nothing to do with getting it right. It has nothing to do with perfecting.
It has all to do with FEELING. From the HEART. Through the greatest intensity. The greatest closure. And trusting the process.